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Sexists suck.

Also, I'm a little buzzed right now so forgive mem for spelling misstales. it has been a while since i have had any alcohol at all in my system so these peach tasting jack daniels things are kind of a lot right now. Why do I even keep drinking them? i hate peach but it tastse good. And there is not even a lot of alcohol in them, but some how I am nearly drunk already.

At work today I had to run things out to the dumpster three times in the first fifteen minues. That's after helping tnt move into the house. The house where i'll be living to! Yay! Well, boo that we were moving things into the house in 100+degree weather. That was not fun.

Anyway. Work. So these two guys-fater and sun maybe---were in the ya section which is my section now and i'm kind of please even though it takes a lot of work, i know ya really really well because i rea d a lot of it. So yeah. i asked if they need any help and they looked me up and down and there was the whole looking down their nose thingy and 'no, I dont think so." Then they started discussing fantasy. "Who is the lee gwin? I've never heard of her. Blah blah blah I'm a huge fucking tool." Assholes. I've probably fortoggen more about fantasy then you'll ever know.

And the fucking kids. really. There were kids running around playing TAG in the fucing isle next to me. And all the stupid questions people were asking me. And the people that argued with em. "But mah friend said she got My Sisters Keeper from here so why don't you have it?"

"As Ive explained thirty fucking times to you already lady, we can't keep the damn thing on the shelf. Your friend was lucky to get it before the next bastard asked for et. We have none. silzh zero nada none."

I love my job, i really, really do bu i think I'm going to have to keep booze on hand for days like today. i dread f4th of jully because it is a saturday and it is also a holiday and i have to work that day. it will be a bad day and i predict much durnkenness when i am finally done wit that day.

So. Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. Well, the best part of the movie was the trailer for 9 at the beginning. It looks fucking fantastic and I can't wait for September to see it and I can't remember the last time I was this excited for a movie. Lord of the Rings, maybe. Oh, and it was followed by a teaser for Avatar: The Last Airbender, but it's the teaser that hit the net a couple days ago. GI Joe looks disappointing. I predict that Scarlet will be relegated to being the Love Interest that gets to stand around looking worried. And hot. Wolf's not happy with my prediction. Anyway, spoilers behind the cut.

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Tonight's my first Mutants and Masterminds game ever. I've had the hardest time coming up with a character concept. Mainly because every time someone brings it up, I've been so tire from work and me being sick/HBC issues. Like this morning. I woke up with a huge headache (I'm still kind of shaky, but sugar's helped). I ended up sleeping in until eleven (woohoo day off!), which I hate doing on my day off, since I only get two of them a week.

So anyway, the setting is vaguely urban fantasy, mostly because we couldn't agree on anything else. Wolf and I wanted cyberpunk, but Sifu hates it. Neither of them are well-versed on anything but Tolkien fantasy and none of us really wanted to play in someone reminiscent of Marvel or DC. So, urban fantasy. Everyone's normal until BAM! powers start happening. I'm planning on making a very logical physics professor with corrosive and disintigrative (is that even a word?) powers which she doesn't discover until she puts her hand down on her desk and there's suddenly a large hole there. I plan on spending much of this session with her in flat denial that this is even happening.

Unfortunately with work, I'm probably going to be closing most of the time which means I don't get out until 10:30. I have no idea how many games I'll actually be able to play in. As it stands, I can't really make it to any of liandra_sadhiki's games any more because I work most Thursday nights. Boo.

So I had a phone shift today which actually wasn't that bad. Someone calls for the manager and I put him on hold and page him. At the time, most of the staff was at the buy counter for one reason or another.

A: Next time, you should repeat it. Just to make sure he hears you.
Me: Okay. I'll remember that next time.
Viking: Oh and sound angry. Grrr!
Me: But I'm not angry! I just can't make myself sound angry.
Viking: Just wait until you start buying. Then you'll sound angry all the time.
Me: Don't tell me that. Let me cling to my faith in humanity for a little while later.

Then, I kid you not, the entire buy counter erupted in laughter.

Tiny: She still has faith in humanity! Isn't that cute?

In other news, my body's still adjusting to the HBC. The nurse said it could take around three months to fully adjust to the extra hormones. This entire week, I've been mopey and weepy and depressed and just...blah. I've been taking things too personally and tearing up at random moments. Ugh.

On the up side, give me an hour or so and it usually passes and I'm back to my sassy self. Except a couple days ago when I had the first panic attack I've had since college. Fortunately for me, Wolf has asthma, didn't panic and kept me from panicking. At least I have my normal self to look forward too. Eventually.

My four week review is tomorrow. I can't believe I've been working there four weeks now. Though the running gag is it's only my second day. That way, I'll always be a rookie for them to pick on. I've been meshing really well with the entire staff and have been picking up things a lot faster than people thought I would. Like today for instance. I was pricing some piano books. Baby glanced at my stack and saw that I was pricing them half off, which is appropriate for music books in excellent condition. "It's like you came packaged for this job!" Heh.

So, yeah. I'm not worried about the review. What I am worried about is learning how to buy books. That's apparently the hardest part of the job and the place where you'll run into the most scammers and rotten people ("What do you mean you're only giving me five dollars for these musty books that are falling apart and only suited for recycling? There're four boxes of them!" Okay, so that's not a real quote, but you get the gist). After another month, I have my second review, which is over buying. A month after that and the rest of my benefits kick in. Hello vacation and holidays. Ooo. And insurance.

Honestly, despite it being actually retail, it doesn't feel like retail. The entire setting is very laid back. Tattoos and piercings can be visible. Speaking of which, I've finally settled on my first tat. I'm going to get part of "The Road Not Taken" on one of my shoulders: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—/I took the one less traveled by,/And that has made all the difference. I know a lot of people choose that one, which makes my choice a little ironic, but it's my favorite poem and when I asked Wolf about it, he said that it really fits me.

Oh, and apparently a tornado touched down somewhere in Denton county tonight, near where Sifu teaches her martial arts. She called me and told me to stay at work until it passed, but I was already heading onto the highway and had no where to go. Ugh. The rain made it nearly impossible to see and I've only been in rain that bad once before. No hydroplaning this time, fortunately. I didn't see any funnels either. Actually, the only bit that worried me is the light I stop at before I turn left onto the road to Wolf's went out when it was green for me. The other directions and colors worked fine, apparently. Not cool. But, I made it back safely and the storm moved on soon after that.

Oh hey! Did you know that The Road is a depressing book? I didn't know either, despite everyone telling me that. I finally picked up a copy of it because Wolf and I want to read it before the movie comes out. I think most of my co-workers told me that it was depressing and I've heard it from several other people who saw me reading it. I'm just a sci-fi (or is that syfy now?) fan who heard nothing about a post-apocalyptic book written by a popular author with a really pretentious writing style.

Maybe I'm just cranky because I have cramps like whoa and I woke up this morning even before Wolf's alarm went off in horrible pain--to the point of tears, actually. >.< It may take a couple more months before my body adjusts to the HBC and calms the fuck down. In the meantime, I seem to be having godawful moodswings. Wolf even said to me after a crying fit, "It's just the hormones. Give it time. Then I'll be able to see what normal [Muse] is like." The fact that he's seen my neurotic side almost before my normal side (I think there was a week or two when I first moved down when I was normal) and still wants to stay with me says loads about him.

Speaking of work, I have three days of the 2:30 to 10:30 shift this week: today through Saturday. I do, however, get Sunday off. It's Hollywood's last weekend here before he gets stationed elsewhere, so I'm rather pleased about that at least. About having Sunday off. Not about him being stationed somewhere else. There's talk of seeing Up. Hollywood, Sifu and Wolf have already seen it, but Wolf said he'd be more than willing to see it again.

Still haven't moved into the house over in Arlington yet. We're waiting for K to move out. Who unpacks all of their shit when they know that they're only going to be there a few months? Not only that, but who takes their good, sweet time repacking all their shit knowing that the actual owners have to be out of their apartment by the thirtieth? An apartment, I might add, that's nearly an hour away. Whether or not she's moved out when she's supposed to, I'm going to have a hard time moving my stuff over. I'm going to have to make multiple trips on my day off, I think. Not only that, but I can't help TNT move their large stuff over (I have a minivan and they have small cars) because I'm working full time. And with gas as expensive as it is, I'm going to be spending a fortune just to move my stuff. Awesome, K.

So. I survived the Memorial Day sale. I also discovered that I have an intolerance to chlorine. Not quite an allergy, but so much for swimming and hot tubs. After work on Monday, I headed over to T's parents' for pool party fun. I don't like swimming in pools much anyway, so I didn't both changing into a swimsuit, but apparently just getting splashed is enough to make me break out in a horribly itchy rash. Same goes for the hot tub. I figured that it had bromine in it, so I could at least soak my feet, right? Ha.

I think it was T who said that they'll just have to take me swimming in an actual lake. Sifu's response? "I don't know, guys. She'll probably just make fun of it." Heh. What can I say? Grow up in Michigan and you have a certain expectation of what a lake should be.

Work on Tuesday wasn't particularly bad. More training stuff, including reading some stuff over on what to do in case of a tornado or flash flood. I looked at the papers, looked back at the manager and said, "I grew up with tornado drills and floods were a part of life in Michigan." They were surprised about the tornadoes. Really? With all the fronts that go through that state? I haven't actually started section work yet because my trainer doesn't know which section will actually be mine. I do like the flexibility we have to mark down and move books in our own sections. Unfortunately, I was just feeling horrible. I had a pretty bad headache, which meant that I just wanted to sleep so I have to reread everything I was given Tuesday because I don't remember much.

After work, I ended up napping, which is pretty rare for me, especially at five in the afternoon. Wolf and Sifu made sure I ate something that night and the best part was that he didn't try to coddle me. I hate being touched when I'm sick or just feel shitty. On the plus side, I had yesterday off, so I had an extra day to recover from whatever it was that was bothering me (I seriously suspect it had something to do with the chlorine and bromine) and I'm fine again.

The place where I'm staying for right now (ten minutes from work as opposed to forty from the apartment) has a penalty box. I've been in it. Several times. Yesterday, I had the record for quickest time in the box--twenty seconds between bad jokes. But it was totally worth it.

Well, the first day wasn't bad. Of course, it was mostly learning about SOPs and reading a bunch of crap, not to mention some paperwork. I get insurance...I'm still kind of surprised and very pleased about that. I don't really care about the health stuff since I'm rarely sick and the kind of health care I do need...well, there's a Planned Parenthood just down the street from me ($27/mo here instead of $50+ for HBC. Good-bye cramps!) However, eye and dental coverage...huzzah! Not to mention a paid lunch and awesome employee discounts.

Okay, so I saw Star Trek last Saturday. I somehow missed the fact that it was a reboot. It was a fun movie, but as a Star Trek fan, I didn't really like it.

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Well, a better one anyway. I'm now employed at a used book store chain. The benefits are just amazing, not to mention a paid lunch hour and a huge employee discount (50% off most books, 20% off everything else). For once, my
English degree came in handy, as did my time at the library. My manager seemed very pleased that I have a great handle on British literature and am willing to learn about various other sections to help customers out.

I start Sunday, which is kind of a bummer since I have to work all day Saturday too, but it'll totally be worth it. So, yay! I'll finally be working with books again.

I really need to get out of this job. If I don't sell the appropriate number of these stupid credit card things to customers, I'll get a verbal reprimand. Which, potentially, means I could get fired over not selling a fucking credit card. Also, it's not doing anything for my health. There are days when I can't even think about work without having an anxiety attack. And, as I mentioned before, it's totally thrown my body out of whack.

Though, until I find a better job, I'll at least be transferred (hopefully) to a store in CH, which is about twenty minutes away from where I'll be living. It's about the same amount of time it takes me to drive to work now. However, once I move, the drive will be about forty minutes to my current job. And there's no way I'll commute forty minutes to a part time job I absolutely despise.

Best part about working in CH? There's a Half Price Bookstore literally right around the corner. I stopped in there after my interview and actually found Tolkien's translation of Sir Gawain and the Green Knight and Walk to the End of the World. At one of the Arlington branches, I found two Tiptree books. Her books are nearly impossible to find any more and I think all of the Holdfast Chronicles are out of print now, so I've been looking for them whenever I'm in a used bookstore.

I heard over and over again that the best part of the (non-existant) Day the Earth Stood Still was the Wolverine trailer. I wonder just how bad the movie was. Seriously. Play the game and rent the movie in a few months. Spoilers under the cut.

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We were supposed to start moving over to the house in Arlington by now and I was supposed to be settling in some time this weekend or next, but the current occupants, T's cousins, haven't moved out yet. They were supposed to move on getting a condo, but didn't move fast enough, so it fell through. Now, apparently, they've closed on a house. T is very optimistic, but tiannas and I are much more cynical. She put the deadline as June 1st though, even if it means the cousins have to move into a tiny little apartment until they find a better house. Especially since TnT's lease is up on June 30th. It's frustrating for them because they want to start settling in and it's frustrating for me because a five minute drive is a million times better than a forty-plus minute drive when I want to see Wolf. Which is quite often.

I didn't get the job in Irving, but it's probably just as well. tiannas has been amazing in helping me look for another job. She set me up on a couple job-finding sites as well as gave me a couple temp agencies to try. Nothing yet, but I'm hopeful again. I was stressing out like made last week due to work cutting my hours in half because a girl's coming back from maternity. I will, however, be transferred over to a mall that's closer to the house than Grapevine. The annoying bit is that I won't be transferred to the one that's right around the corner from the house. See, it's high volume and the manager doesn't think that she'd be able to train me properly in a high volume store, even though the store I'm currently at is extremely high volume. What the fuck ever. As soon as I have another job, I'm handing in my two weeks.

On top of that, my stressing fucked up my cycle, so I've been cramping for two weeks and have gods-know-how long left before I actually start. Though I think part of my stressing over money and work last week was fueled by hormones, which in turn stressed me out more which caused me to get weepy, which stressed... Okay, you get the picture. It was a miserable week and I'm surprised TnT didn't kill me. But, tiannas was wonderful and bought me a box of raspberry tea, so I'm hoping that it helps. If nothing else, it's incredibly soothing and has been helping me keep my stress levels down.

Tomorrow, though, should be fun. A bunch of us are going to see Wolverine. Sifu, tiannas and I are only interested in it because we're huge Gambit fans and it's about damn time. T wants to see Deadpool (though he was traumatized when Wolf and I explained what they did to his character WTF) and Wolf and Hollywood are just huge comic geeks. No one's expecting this to be a great movie, which is why no one's paying big bucks to see the midnight showing like Cat and Toad.

So I had my job interview today. The job is about forty minutes away from where I'll be living, which is much closer than my current job. My interviewer said that they were hiring both full and part time, so I'm crossing my fingers that I get the former. I don't really want to make the commute (I can shave off ten minutes if I pay the toll on the turnpike) but eh. Even if I'm only offered part time, I may accept because, hey, closer commute and I haven't heard back from anyone in the Arlington area that I've applied at. I'm really running out of options here. And, honestly, I'm so sick of looking for a job that I could just cry if I had to do any more.

I has a job interview! It's for a sales associate type position at a massage chain around here. A decent portion of the job is medical records-ish, so my six years of that should come in quite handy. It's a bit closer to Arlington than my current job and I really hope it's full time. I really don't care where I end up right now, I just need a full time job.

Though, since it is closer, if it pays well (assuming I get the job), I might take it any way because it won't be my current job. One of the new things the DM is having stores try is signing people up for a particular magazine without telling them that they'll eventually have to pay for it. It makes me very uncomfortable. Then again, I'm very uncomfortable trying to sell the partner programs to customers. Blech.

Wolf's been spoiling me. He bought me a Dream collectable figure (I have no idea if I should call it a doll or an action figure, but it's definitely a display piece). It comes with the key to hell, his very frightening mask, Matthew the raven and Goldie the Gargoyle (who is very cute by the way). I haven't displayed it anywhere yet because I don't want LS' cat knocking it over. Also, the same comic book store where he bought me the figure has a Vertigo tarot deck. I may have to stop in and pick it up some day. I absolutely love the art.

I was just offered a job at Bath and Body Works that's in a mall that will be near where I'm moving to in Arlington. I turned it down. I'm sure it's better than my current job, but they can't guarantee X number of hours. I'd be working anywhere from four to thirty hours. Now, the latter is fantastic. The former, however... It won't even cover gas for my current commute. Even after I move, I doubt I'll be making what I am now, which won't even pay for a loan payment. I really hated turning it down, but without a guarantee, it wouldn't even be worth it.

Blech. Why can't I find a full-time job? Everything around here is part-time. I'll probably have to end up getting a second job just to pay the bills. I hate it that a job I hate so much is the best one I've found.

Also, Doctor Who OMG! So I see the first special just aired. Awesome. Must watch it.

Wolf bought me comics! Not just any comics, mind you (though comics really are a faster way to my heart than flowers), but Tek Jansen comics! Did you know that there were comics? I didn't. Then again, I haven't watched the Colbert Report (or the Daily Show for that matter) since I moved. So I missed Jon Stewart's feuding. Boo. I'll have to catch up on eps when I have some time.

We've made tentative plans to see the King Tut exhibit in Dallas tomorrow, which is something both of us have been wanting to do but I've been working a lot of weekends. Plus, I want to see some of the art work by dead guys I've discussed in classes but never got a chance to see. Like some of Metisse's paintings. It'll be the first actually Metroplexy thing I've done since I've moved down here.

Oh, and yesterday at work, I ended up helping a woman from Michigan. Not just Michigan but NE GR, about an hour away from my home town. Her phone number still had the 616 area code, which was weird to hear.

Speaking of work, I've already started looking for another job. I'll be moving to Arlington sooner than anyone thought and I don't want to drive to Grapevine for a part time job. Plus, I hate it. So tonight, my awesome roomies are going to show me around Arlington a bit and hopefully I can grab some job apps and drop of a resume or two. I've already applied online at UTA.

Ugh. I'm really not liking work. At least it's only part-time. TNT are very generous and told me that I don't have to worry about paying for rent and utilities until we move to Arlington. One of my managers said something about a full-time position opening up in the near future, but I just can't bring myself to be hopeful about getting it. It's not even that I'm working in retail. Most of the customers have been excellent. I just don't like the whole "power selling" philosophy of the place. Not to mention pushing some Mastercard and magazine crap on them. Just three more months. I can put up with this for three more months. Well, less. I hope to have a job in Arlington before we move so I don't have to commute to that stupid mall any more.

I've been down here a month now and I don't hate it. I don't know my way around as well as I'd like yet. Then again, I really don't care much about finding my way around Lewisville since I'll be moving again in three months. Arlington, however, is huge and it just keeps expanding. Fortunately, one of my friends down here is like a walking GPS unit, so if I ever get lost, I can just give her a call.

I have expanded my bad movie collection quite a bit down here. I picked up an Ed Wood collection because no one down here has ever seen Plan 9 From Outer Space. I also now own Bakshi's Lord of the Rings, The Omega Man, Logan's Run and Zardoz (most incomprehensible movie ever). tiannas owns Soylent Green, but had never actually seen it, so we had to sit down one night and watch it. It's people, by the way. I mean...IT'S PEOPLE!!

I told Wolf about them since he likes classic sci-fi as well and he got a huge grin on his face. "Logan's Run? We have to watch it as soon as possible." However, he has Venture Brothers season three, so we're working our way through that right now. He's also heard of Zardoz and actually wants to sit down and watch it with me. I don't know if this is a match made in heaven (or, well, tiannas' brain) or his naivete. Not only that, but he's actually read Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead and wants to see it now (it's one of my favorite movies).

Ahem. There I go gushing again. Anyway, it's become pretty rainy down here lately which actually makes me a bit homesick. Though I don't get the headaches like I used to in Michigan. Probably because Texas isn't surrounded on three sides by water and getting fronts from every direction.

The first hour was utterly, utterly fantastic. Rorschach's mask and lines right out of the comic and...wow. Then, the projector died. Right in the middle of Moloch's bit. WTF Vista Ridge, WTF? We waited for a half an hour and when they still didn't have it up and running, we left and grabbed a couple of rain checks. I'm still rather miffed. tiannas said that it serves me right for trying to see it before we see it together. Bitch.

So, yeah, I still have to wait until tomorrow to actually see the whole thing. And if something like this happens again, I'm going to burn the theater down.

Huzzah! I has a job! I'm now officially employed at Maternity Motherhood (okay, get all the laughter out of your system). Hopefully, I'll be dealing mostly with pregnant women that don't have many (if any) children.

Actually, it's by far the best offer I've had. The pay is at least double what I've been offered elsewhere in the mall and I'll be nearly full time instead of barely part time. A lot of it falls on "power selling" and there are commissions, but my wages don't depend on that, just raises and hours. The more you sell, the more hours you get. That sort of thing. But, really, this job is just a stepping stone. Once I move to the other part of the Metroplex, I'll look for something more permanent and something more along the lines I actually want to do.

Now I have to go buy new clothes since I'm only allowed to wear grey, black, white and khaki. Oh, and comfortable shoes since my sandals are borderline acceptable and my boots aren't comfortable for hours on my feet. I really don't think I'm going to have a problem working there.

I start Monday. The only downside (so far) is that I will be working some late nights and probably weekends as well. It might be even harder to spend time with Wolf, but we'll manage.

Speaking of which: EEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Tomorrow I get to see Watchmen with him. The first time at least. I'm sure we'll end up seeing it many times since we've both been waiting impatiently for the movie.

Thanks for the well wishes, everyone! I'm here in sunny Texas. I don't think it's been below seventy since I moved. I was so excited to dig out my sandals and wear them in February.

Good news, everyone! I have a job interview on Tuesday. All ready! I turned in fourteen applications and this maternity store set up an interview on the spot. *crosses fingers* More good news: Wolf and I have a date on Friday. An actual just between us date.

Now, trip details. So I met tiannas at the air port and brought her Koffee Kuppe (it's the best food ever OMG). I drove through Michigan and most of Indiana, then bits of Missouri. tiannas drove most of the way and I'm extremely grateful for that. I hate driving. I got lost coming back from the mall today and it's not even that far. Wolf did call during the trip. In fact, we passed through Normal, IL as we talked, which I find to be rather funny. An entire hour and I didn't let anything slip. Nor did tiannas say anything. Oi.

( I show up and surprise Wolf. There is much gushing beneath this cut. Diabetics should be aware. )